the dark goes before the dawn

[lightningdark]

this is pretty much just a random rant from me. and guess what its about... yes the wonderful *eurgh* spoilers about Hollyoaks this week. its all under a cut, because well some people, if you have been living on a different planet for the last few months, may have no idea what this is.

So I'm not even surprised that Kieron is being killed. Sort of been waiting for it to be confirmed. I am not bothered as a JPKer, I'm bothered as a JPCer. I 100% believe that JP loves Kieron, no matter what the stupid things he is no doubt going to do when Craig turns up. What bothers me is how are JPC ever going to be able to be together with that hanging over the relationship. Which it will be. How is JP going to live with that guilt? I'm putting all my faith in Craig here, which really if history of his character is anything to go by then its a bad idea, but I don't think its wrong to hope that Craig Dean may have actually grown in the last year. What I'd really love, is to see Craig being the friend to John Paul, the friend JP will need at a time like this. It was the first thing I loved about JPC, that friendship and how close they were and how they understood one another, before the feelings between them changed.
JP holding Kieron's dead body in his arms will pretty much kill me. I don't even think I want to watch it, I mean I will, but its going to be so hard. And the fact that he is off with Craig as he lays dying with Niall watching on is just the biggest kick in the face for the JPKers I think, because it just confirms all our fears as JPKers, was JP ever really invested in the relationship? Or was he just waiting around for Craig Dean to reappear? And if that is the case, that's fine, but why give us this amazing romance between Kieron and JP, if they were just going to turn round and say actually it didn't mean that much at all. And I just don't think that of John Paul, I want to believe he has grown from that and is better than that, but him having sex with Craig pretty much ruins that idea I have of him.

Having said all of that, I do believe that this is all going to play out fantastically, and while I am dreading it, I am actually very much looking forward to the whole thing just being over with.
I always think that the best love storys have been tragic ones, and JPK is certainly that now.
I can't decide if I wanted JPC to leave together, I think if its as friends, I will be happy, but anything more wouldn't seem right after everything that has happened. But who knows, I'

Comments

[jordle.livejournal.com]

I have wanted to do the same rant on my LJ but I haven't had the time. I want John Paul and Craig together in the end - but I wanted them to be together because they chose to be so. By killing Kieron off we're never going to truly know if JP really did chose Craig (If they do end up together) because he wanted to be with him more than anyone else or if he is picking Craig because Kieron isn't an option anymore.

I'm really upset about this.

[claire-kay.livejournal.com]

see the thing is with me, I really didn't mind who ended up with who, but what bothered me was the fact that why build such a relationship between JPK if they were going to turn around and have him run off with Craig anyway? And if they are going to do that, then why kill off Kieron?

That's why it bugs me, and its not about JP wanting Craig over Kieron, its like you say he isn't making the choicer, in a way it would be like him settling for Craig because Kieron is gone. Which in a weird twisted way as a JPK fan I love because it means that the love he had for Kieron was that strong. But then I hate it as a JPCer because I nthink JPC have been through so much. I think for me however this had ended there was going to be one thing I hated, butb now there are just so many things that I am dreading. I hate the fact that Kieron is being killed off in some attempt to through JPC back together and have Craig help him through his grief and then no doubt lead to more, and I hate the fact that there is a possibilty that they will actually get back together after this has happened, making it seem that JP's relationship with Kieron meant nothing to him, I am sure there will be a lot of people happy with that, but I can't be happy for JPC like that, not if it happens that way.

I'm upset about it too :(
If they wanted the SE thats fine, I really would have been happy, but I don't think they needed to kiil Kieron in order to get it, if anything it just takes so much away from it and how good it could have been.

[amy-jo24.livejournal.com]

well done for this rant!

It is going to make fantastic viewing but those photos of John Paul holding Kierons body broke me. Seriously my mind has been going insane, dreaming up all the episode in my head all yesterday and even in my sleep!

I just want to be able to still like John Paul at the end of this, I don't want him to be fickle and run off with Craig. I think it would ruin the tragedy of JPK if JP found love again within days.

argh! This is just too exciting and aggravating - I've got such a mix of emotions.

[claire-kay.livejournal.com]

my emotions are just screwed lol.
I just am dreading it all but then like you say I can't wait for it. but just with everything that has come out over the last few days and everything that has been said, I just want it over now.

[amy-jo24.livejournal.com]

too true, too true